Friday 14th July 2017
This morning I dropped you off at preschool as I have done every term time Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday since September.
As always you walked in, you found your name on its apple and hung it on the tree. I put your lunch bag in its place and hung your bag on its peg. Luckily we were a little late and it gave me a good excuse to make a hasty retreat. I could already feel the tears starting to burn in my eyes – you were totally oblivious as I kissed you good bye – you were more interested in discussing Lego figurines with your best friend.
I got home and put your brother down for a sleep – possibly his last ever morning sleep as now I don’t have do a midday pick up, he can have an after lunch nap.
I then wrapped your teachers thankyou presents and wrote their cards. I made sure to say everything that I wanted to say – mainly that your confidence and ability is a credit to them – because I knew I wouldn’t be able to get the words out later.
Then I went about my morning – plenty of washing – you and your brother and sister are such grubs and then at 12.40 I woke up Mason to come and pick you up.
I was in tears before I had even opened the door to the classroom. I didn’t even bother to fight them. I thrust the teachers presents at them – luckily I wasn’t the only one in tears and there were hugs all round – you looked quite confused that you were getting all the cuddles – totally nonchalant.
It probably seems silly that I was so upset but it means that life is changing for us again. Those lovely ladies have been so kind and lovely to us over the last year of school – as were the wonderful teachers at your previous preschool too. It humbles me how they can take care of so many children, yet still have time for them all as individuals.
I have to admit I had my doubts when you moved from a very free flow preschool to a Montessori one, but both me and Daddy can tell how much good it has done for you. As sad as I was at your last day today I know you are moving on to school with confidence and ability to learn and follow routine. This I know will hold you in good stead as you start your school life.
We don’t always see eye to eye you and me. I make no secret that sometimes you are harder to understand than your big sister – she is so easy going and so laid back that she’s almost horizontal. You have a much more emotive personality – like me I guess. Or perhaps you are a stereotypical middle child. Maybe that’s why we butt heads a bit.
On the other hand you are a kind and interested child. You value those you hold dear immensely. If you are given sweets or a treat you always make sure to save some for Izzie and Mason. Once I watched you break a rock cake that you had made into 5 pieces so that everyone in our family could have some.
That’s another thing – you are so inquisitive and keen to learn. You are always so proud when you get something right – and if you don’t you try again until you do.
You are my much longed for rainbow baby – and I can’t believe a whole four and a half years have passed since you came flying into the world at warp speed.
I am sad because in September I’m going to be losing you to term times and homework but I hope it means that weekends and holidays can be more fun.
You are so ready for this next step – although I know I won’t be wishing this summer away, always know that I am so so proud of you and love you to the moon and back – even when you are a bit grumpy.
I’m so lucky that you are mine,
All my love,